that girl.

I have always been the type of girl to care too much. I’m the type of girl that has to put makeup one before I leave my house. I’m the type of girl that follows the rules and I get very angry when other people do not. I’m bossy and articulate and I have a very strict way of organizing and going about my day. I’m a type A.

I want to stop being that girl. I want to stop worrying about every little bump in my hair and every little crumb in my bed.

Yet, sometimes, I do. Some days, I do not care about my hair or acne. Some days I stare at people when they stare at me. Some days I even speak up for myself. But not always.

I’m quick to anger when a minor inconvenience alters my daily routine. I get pissy when I do not get a perfect A on an English paper or when my reflection doesn’t mirror the girls I see on my Instagram feed.

I’m an enforcer, I’m a dictator, and I’m a mean woman when others do not do what I want them to. I do not like myself for those reasons.

How do I find alternative methods to channel my anxiety and desire for perfection into a healthy mindset? How do I become less fixated on trivial things and instead look at the “bigger picture”?

I’m in need of a change before I drive away a great guy who loves me.

These past couple of months have been difficult and exhilarating; I’ve been grasping for time where I can just relax to no avail.

Is this an existential crisis? Advice, words of wisdom, stories of similar problems, or even an acknowledgment would be greatly appreciated.

xoxo,

Natalie Joy

My Faves!

Vaseline

• Removing makeup at night
• Chapped lips
• Helps to soften and grow eyelashes
• Raw skin (sore nose during cold season)

Carmex (Cherry flavored)

• Just the best shit for your lips ever. Don’t question me on this.

Coconut Oil

• Used for shaving my legs
• Some people use it in their hair… I don’t know if i’m ready for that yet.

Batiste dry shampoo

• Don’t feel like washing your hair? Batiste.
• Hair is super flat? Batiste.
• Hair doesn’t smell good? Batiste.
• Want piecey/surfer hair? Batiste.
• Boyfriend dumps you? Batiste.

Aveeno daily moisturizer for face

• Use twice a day and your face will feel absolutely incredible! I used to have really dry, sensitive skin but since I’ve started using this, my skin is super moisturized and has never felt healthier.

xoxo, Natalie joy

Good Afternoon, World!

Okay so to begin my blog, I’m going to give a brief description of myself! I’m a 19 year old freshman at my local community college in San Diego, California! I’m currently studying as a journalism major. I am an ex pageant queen and cheerleader, which is where my love for makeup and hair began. I love to go to the beach, spend time with my doggies, shop, meet new people, and eat. I’m very knowledgeable about all things makeup, hair, and fashion and I’m excited to share all of my beauty tips with everyone here! I love to look for cheap and easy ways to make my life fabulous! Please feel free to ask me about pageants, hair, makeup, clothes, boys, friends, DIY, tanning, and life! (Just not fitness because I am NOT a health blog lol)Much love.

xoxo, Natalie Joy